First off I’ve been noticing how ill my sleeping habits were and how occupied I am, thinking. And so now that I can’t sleep, this is for ‘you’. 

Dear you,

I don’t hate you for causing me sleepless nights nor weird dreams. Yet I commend you for overpowering my acads-extracuri-stress. Good job and right timing, all is well. Thank you for easing each and every bit of stress whenever you buzz my mind. Although, I’m bothered for the fact that you are living and growing roots in my mind. Oh did I say roots? YES ROOTS. You’ve been there for so long ago, can’t wait for fruits! But then of course I’m thankful for the feeling you never fail to give, whenever I recognize that buzz. I don’t know how and what else to share but for once at least I just want to air it out ha-ha.

Oh it’s been so long, and I just don’t know how to deal with it. I don’t know what it is but for sure, it bothers me! ha-ha! So everything was smooth sailing for me, ‘handling things the way it used to be’. Then you entered the picture and after sometime I lost it. or maybe placed it somewhere? someone got it? threw it? or plainly faded away. Well it really doesn’t matter now, I’m okay knowing that it’s not with me anymore. :) 

What I’m really sure of is that you are in mind causing me sleepless nights and bubbly feelings. Also, its been days now since I’ve been playing ‘Set down your glass- Snow Patrol’ over and over again to make me sleep. Oh memories- just so powerful. Honestly, songs that reminds me of things really makes me sleep. Yet makes me attached or stuck with ‘it’. And maybe that explains why you’re growing roots in my mind. 

The question is, should I keep it? or let it go? I really opt to ‘let it go’ and thinking of it makes me me really excited for that ‘new seed’ in my head. But beneath the excitement is certain feeling that stops me. And so I don’t know now. 

Again I don’t know. But whatever it may be, above every ‘I don’t know’ is a bubbly feeling- feeling that shakes me into happiness. :) I don’t care whatever feeling you got there, I don’t care whether you feel the same thing or at least if you have feelings. What I care about is that…. I’m happy and I’m glad you’re part of it. 

Good night! 9am class tomorrow uh-oh!